me me me.

so the first thing i should probably say is that i have been the world's worst blogger lately.  you should know that i am completely and utterly aware of this.  you should also probably know that there is a reason for it, and this reason is, simply, that i quit smoking a little over 2 months ago and that writing makes me want to shove 20 cigarettes in my mouth and smoke them all at once.   so... yeah... that explains why i've been laying low on the blogging/writing front.  and, also, for the record, on pretty much every other front.

but oh, how i have missed it here!

let me get you caught up on all the latest, ok?

first of all, you already know that i quit smoking.  that's by far the biggest thing.  ever.  in the history of all things pertaining to me.

secondly, i'm having a video made for my little business.  i saw a rough cut of it tonight and i was so excited, i almost had a kristen bell sloth meltdown.  i can't wait 'til it's done and i can share it.  i wanted to take a ton of pictures when we were making it but i was too busy and forgot.  here is the one shot i did take of my friend, audrey:

and a still from the video:

#3 is that i'm trying to plan a trip to tulum, mexico.  i've been ready to go for at least the past 2 weeks but the weather down there hasn't been very good so i've been holding out.

i want to stay here:

i think that's all i've got for now.

over and out.

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oh, my heart!

wanted.

gotsta get me a porcelain pen so's i can gets my craft on.

motion.

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♥.

i've been missing my best friend a lot lately. 

i'm not sure i can express in words how much i love brené brown.

"I’ve heard so many stories in my life that I know I’m not alone. Everyone has a struggle. It’s what I say about empathy in my shame work. If you have a petri dish and you have shame in there, this pervasive feeling of not being good enough and not being ‘whatever’ enough—thin enough, rich enough, popular enough, promoted enough, loved enough. It only needs three things to survive in this little Petri dish and actually to grow exponentially and creep into every corner and crevice of your life and those are secrecy, silence and judgement. If you have the same amount of shame in a Petri dish and you douse it with some empathy, you share your story with someone who can hear you and look back at you and say you’re not alone, shame dies. You’ve created a hostile environment for those gremlins who keep saying to you ‘you’re not enough, you’re not enough, nothing you do is enough’. So I believe with my whole heart there are only two options; to let what scares us stay inside of us—and fester and grow and take over everything—or to share it. I think that we have to share our stories with people who’ve earned the right to hear them."
- Brené Brown

*taken from this interview with her

musical OCD: julia nunes.

i wish someone would tell new artists that their first videos don't need concepts.  no one knows them yet so no one is sick of looking at them.  they don't need a gimmick to distract people.  they should be sticking to simpler, easier to make, less distracting, easier to execute performance videos.  particularly since artists who are starting out hardly ever have any money, and when you have no money, you can't afford a stylist, or make-up artist or a director of photography, or a decent director, a hairdresser, or any of the things you generally need to make a video look good.  for crying out loud, i could have made this kid a better video.

that being said, this is an adorable, little pop song.  

inspiration.

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musical OCD: willie nelson & kimmie rhodes.

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